This Low feeling !!!

Last one week had been very hectic... There have been a lot of issues at work.. Deadlines missed, clients unhappy... Team finding difficult to manage things... The week which started very well, by me making Dum Aaloo and Sandesh for Sunday Lunch ended up really bad....

After hectic week Saturday morning my day was made.. I saw Gomes on video chat... It was a treat for my eyes and my heart to see him ... After 2 whole weeks since the time he has left India I was seeing him for the first time... I was all so happy though since I didnt have a webcam he could see me then ;) ... Saturday passed in some house hunting activity with Amma n Appa...

Evening was nice, met couple of friends and then went out for Dinner at Dhaba with Sumanth, Dharini, Hari, Snigdha and Shankar...

We ordered for Rajasthani Thali.. Ummm amazing food Dal, Kadhi, Aaloo ki sabji, Bhindi ki sabji, chawla, Gutta, Bajre ki roti dahi, phulka, chawal, papad, ... Was missing home food soooo much and this filled my taste buds....
Came back home after a stomach full of good food and heart full of good laugh... and then again till late in the night Video chat.. Seriously thank U GOOGLE.. U made my day...

Come sunday morning and we fought.. :( ...his Saturday made bad and my sunday worse.. whole day passed with house hold chores and some office work in the evening..and its late in the night and we have still not resolved...
Why it hurts.. it hurts very bad to fight with the people u love... but I guess every individual is different and there ways of reconciliation is different.. My friends say the first year of marriage is very difficult.. with my experience some times  I agree with them and sometimes I dont.. but right now I m feeling terrible.. I just hope such days are not there in our lives...
This blog helps me pen down.. this is why even when I just feel like crashing down I m writing... I hope things get better..and we get better tooo and somewhere in my heart I m too full to take things... Give us peace .. please god give us peace & a little bit of patience to me...

The FIRSTS of my life !!! Part 1

I have been waiting to write this for a couple of days but as usual work, life & other commitments kept me pre-occupied... So today I decided to pour it down....

How was your first day in school, college... your first job or anything which is your first experience... Yes this is what I thought I ll capture it to relive whenever I want ...

First day in school - Seriously I dont remember it too well.... All I remember is my first school was right in the middle of a ground under a shed (Today's Playschool in crude form)  in Jiagunj (Murshidabad) where we used to get biscuits in break :) ... Other than that its all erased memory.

First results : Once we moved to Kolkata ( then Calcutta) I was into a proper or not so proper school called MILTON DAY school so after the whole term I got my results & I stood second in the class.... So wonderful feeling.. But only to realise that I have to change school since the class strength was only 10 kids :) ... So all the good feeling goes to drain....

First Medal : In  my next proper school ( this time I can call it) which was GSS Girls School we had this Annual Sports day in a huge Stadium in Kolkata.... We had practiced for a month in the close by park , the drills, the PT, the marchpast... It was so much fun.. No studies and all of us in the park preparing for it. And finally the D day came. I had taken part in multiple sports competition like Three legged race , Lemon & spoon race & Opening the knot race. I was the first to cross the FINISH line in Opening the Knot race... The feeling was wonderful.. I got a certificate & a Medal and I was wearing that Medal for almost a week ... I was so Happy... I thought I could join gymnastics :) ....

First Date : If I can call it a date then watching the movie Aladin with lot of friends around at the age of 14 yrs.. then yes this was my first date.. But I would prefer to narrate my experience of First date in College : Second year exams over and my Boy friend or Boy as a friend who had come to see me from a different city was suppose to take me out... In the month of May when Delhi is boiling we went to Ansal Plaza.. In my heart I was so scared since I come from a very traditional mindset and was really scared to go out with a Boy whom I had not met for a really long time.... But having a Burger, french fries & coke  in Mc Donalds in Ansal Plaza South Delhi and talking about our aspirations in life..,and then he dropping me home in Auto where I m scared that no one should see me with him....Yes this was my first date... Pretty simple and if today someone reads it they might laugh ...

First Stage performance : I performed a bengali fol song "Phoole Phoole Daale Daale " which is about flowers & spring.... I performed when I was just about 6 yrs old in the Annual Function of my first school MILTON DAY in front of 100 or 200 odd number of people. A solo performance drapped in brown & golden Silk saree with flower ornaments.... Yes I felt the an unexplained Happiness... And this is where I guess I started my Dancing journey.. Its my passion to dance.... & I pray to god to let me dance till I live...

First Disc Experience : This one is very interesting... Elevate in Center Stage Mall Noida is suppose to be the most happening Disco Thique In NCR.. And when DJ Shakeel was suppose to come on that day was when I had entered a Disco Thique for the first time... With my friends Anita, Amit & Deepa... It was so much fun . Though it was so crowded that after a point I felt why do we need a Disco.. Our house parties are better... Its so fun fun and we can have our own music and change it the time we want it.. but nevertheless I wont forget this experience we all dressed up to dance.... And at 2 in the night we came back home and stayed back at Deepa's place... And then it was just the beginning of our ( Deepa, Anita & Me) dance & disc fever... We have tried and tested Ice Cube, Chicane, Crown Plaza, etc etc.... And trust me gurls I have had the most amazing time only with U .... Hope we get one more chance of shaking a leg together...

First Interview : All of sudden when I finished college Bcom... the though was what next and dont know with some thing in mind I told my Dad in my best ever conversation ( I call this one a MAN to MAN talk) I wanted to do CA ( Chartered Accountancy)  not knowing what are the process or stages of the same.
The very next day my dad had spoken to this Auditors and discussed about my Articleship. For those of you who are not aware, CA course consists of not only Giving and Clearing 6 (Inter) plus 8 (Finals) paper.. but alsoa mandatory 3 years Articleship under a CA wherein you do practically audits & other related activities to gain exposure.... Now that dad had spoken already I had to prepare myself for the interview... With butterflies in my stomach I took those 8 steps and waited with a one page resume of mine where I had just given my Finals Bcom results awaited.... Still I dont know how I got thru but trust me the learning it Never go for interviews unprepared...Once through the next three years just went by in Audits, classes and exams....I completed my Articleship from Lodha& Co New Delhi ... Got great experience learned a lot under my seniors & made some friends for life ... Thank U all...

First Day in College : I rememeber how I waited outside in the bus stand for a friend to join me to enter the college ( JDMC) since I was scared of ragging... After having waited for almost an hr when I call her home landline I knew she is already inside the college... I felt this is it.. I would never get friends like my school mates... and with tears in my eyes I was back home and wishes I never had to go to college again.... But there again as time went by the next three years was again fun.... :)

First pay : Even before I could join a job after some professional qualification, I used to take tutions for 2 kids while I was in college. A girl who was in 3rd Standard for all the subjects and her Brother in 9th Standard for Maths & Science... It was fun & also required a lot of patience but when at the end of the month I used to get that 700 Rs. I think it felt the best.... True now when I look back... Money value has changed so much within the last 10 yrs...

First day at Work : After finishing my CA I got an offer in HCL as a SAP consultant ( My current professions) ..... I shopped to join my first job... New trousers, shirt, Lipstick mascara... And my closest friend dropped me there and wished me luck with flowers... I was very scared to enter the corporate world.. Just didnt know after School, College, CA what kind of people I m gonna meet here in this new phase of life.. But at the same time I knew the time has come to take control of my life and things... and live the way I want it.... And then on now it seems history.... But yes I love HCL and would always treasure my experience there... I think first job is like first love U never forget :)

First Dance : No this is not one of my stage performances, this is something which is very close to my heart... My dance with my husband Gomes...Soft music I just called to say I love you , Candle lit and just US... I dont think I can write it... Its treasured in my heart.. Thank U Gomes for giving me that moment .....

Yes there is a lot more of my FIRSTs... but since this post is already very long... I would write it in my second part.... So think ..... look back and figure out your first experiences ....How was it ????

Good to follow lines !!!

These lines I read and just wanted to mark it in my mind... So posting it...
*Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would most likely beworth it."ENJOY LIFE NOW - IT HAS AN EXPIRATION DATE!*

These are not written by me.... But wanted to share with u all ...

My first dedication - Feeling Blue !!!

This first post to my Husband on valentines day ... I miss u a lot love...

I feel like singing the song " Feeling blue feeling blue " from Pyar ke Side Effects.... Yeah my husband Gomes (http://thoughtsfromaclutteredmind.blogspot.com/) has left to US yesterday night.... Never knew I would miss him so much.... We are just married for 2 months and life was just about settling down in this new phase suddenly these IT industries one of the side effects hit us... He was asked last monday to leave for US within a week...

From then on we didnt really know how time went on... There was my project deadline and then him starting to attend those US calls for his new project so we realised or so to say not realised that we didnt have any time to spend with each other... as and as we moved past the days of the week.... we were just coming closer to his time to leave..... One day leave isnt enough when it comes to Husband leaving for US... :( ... So I tried taking friday off to prepare for his trip but realised its not enough... we shopped and we ate at SUBWAY... Saturday again was full of preparation packing... in between we met 3 Friends Dharini, Sumanth & Vinay.... went to temple to pray for his good trip...Met relatives to say bye n get blessings.....

I bought him a Platinum ring since he doesnt wear the ring I got him for our engagement... But this new one he loves... and more so this reminds him more of me.....Yeah I know what you are thinking ... when are we going to spend time with each other.... But true I was also thinking the same when will we get to spend some time together... And there we were 8 in the evening... Thats when we spend some 1 hr went to French Loaf had a black forest... The pastry didnt taste its best.. neither our moods were to enjoy nor the pastry itself was good...

And then back home everyone waited to wish him and bless him.. not knowing how time flies it was 12.30 am and here we started for Airport...Oh god it doesnt feel like Airport at all.. it is like local train station with 15 people seeing off one person flying off to the other part of the world...Watever without any HUG :( my love went on his way for the queue to screening of his luggage and boarding pass...

I was thinking am i going to cry like hell the way I did for my wedding or see him off smiling ... Guess wat I did the second one... Smiled at him and told him to take care...Came home tired at 3 in the morning and slept myself off... But from the time I have got up today every moment I have been missing him... I m missing him like crazy...

So this one goes to you my Love

FEELING BLUE FEELING BLUE FEELING BLUE....My heart's cant be cant be trueAlways cant be trueMy heart's cant be cant be trueJaane kya jaanemaan bawaraaAkhiyan mere saawaan chalaJaane kya jaanemaan bawaraaAkhiyan mere saawaan chala -Feeling blueMy heart's cant be cant be trueAlways cant be trueMy heart's cant be cant be true !!!

Wish I see you soon....